Yesterday rocked the sauce out of the Mozarella cheese! Played a show at Mission at lunch time...more people came out than last time, Pissed me off when people will promise me they'll come out and support and give me some bullshit excuse why they couldn't come out...let's see what excuses did I get....It took hella days for my burrito to get made... I had to do uhmm.... something...and some more lame excuses...Alot of the people I least expected to come out, showed a great respect for my band and congratulated me with the performance..which was really nice...SAN FRANCISCO! What a weird place....gee...B-diddy and I had to go to a meeting to play a show at Slim's, it started at 7:30 and we had to be back at Kennedy HS at 9:30 to play another show....we ran through San Francisco seeing homeless people shooting up on the streets, the most Gay couples I have seen in my life, and the smell of urine has still left it's trace in my nose.. We ran in to the meeting...got our tickets we need to sell and ran off to the Bart station...we made it back at fremont at 9:18. We rushed to Kennedy and got there when the band before us had just finished their last song...PERFECT timing baby! We got on stage and rocked out with our cocks out...(not serious) I had my ginormous mic cord and got into the crowd a few times...did a GIANT mic swing in the open space in the crowd and bit my cheek in three different places...taste of blood as I sang was quite pleasant...a good amount of people came out...Alot of girls..I talked to these three girls with Adam and Jack...we were sharing underwear designs.. and we had a competition between Jack and Lawson on who had the hairiest ass...Lawson dominated Jack....it was gross... They took pictures of me...which made me really shy... I don't really know why...I would moon with my boxers on and my picture would be snapped...and when I raised my shirt with my stamped on flowers on my nipples another pictures would be taken...crazy...I thought one of the girls was pretty cute but ended up being one of those girls that like other girls..so it was sorta weird..They thought I was 18 too...when I told them I was 15 they sort of freaked out..haha..well I'm out...

I wrote a song on my acoustic today.....the music sort of is really simple but here are the lyrics...

Baby, I want to I want to
hold on to you
And I'm trying, I'm trying
to find the truth
Do you hear me?
Do you see me?
Or do you just feel for me when I am sad?
I need to know...

Eyes shut, ears plugged
I want to feel your love
I'm nervous, and shaking while your walking away...
I'm spilling, and giving my heart for you
And you don't the slightest clue
of the way, the way, the way
my heart screams your name...

Baby, I want to I want to
hold on to you
And I'm trying, I'm trying
to find the truth
Do you hear me?
Do you see me?
Or do you just feel for me when I am sad?
I need to know...

I'm taking my time
Don't want to be just another guy in line
And I'm slowing down
The truth is that I want to push through
Just let me knw if you feel the way I do

yup that was it...just a really straight forward catchy song...I wrote some more stuff at school today...

Any Means Possible

I've tried to get your attention
In any means possible
But if I did have the courage to tell you how i feel
Would I look down in shyness?
I want to let you know
Afraid I will scare you off
Trying to let go
So I can move on
And hold on to you

Emphasizing my direction
Moving forward and on
Feel for my affection!
Catch me before I wait too long
I could wait forever
When should I draw the line?
Your eyes say never
Will your eyes ever be on mine?
From dusk til dawn
I'll believe my day dreams
Fall asleep and I'll be gone
Where you'll be with me

That's it....nothing to special that one is sort of weird...it lick suddenly changes into some rhyme scheme...It's about a girl...that I'm still not comfortable about talking about so *SKIP*

anyways today I realized something...actually i'm going to write a poem about it right now....well type it i guess...because I don't really want to directly explain myself...I usually can't explain myself...hmm....how should i start this off?

I've shown you this side of me
Making it hard to let go of this continuity
This inexplicable plight
Has resulted to endless nights
Opened up my world, when it was made to be kept in secret
I only wanted to stay with you and now I am vagrant
Roaming lonely at hours of sleep
Now you know the true me
And I don't want anyone else to know...

Uhhhh! Free verse that....if you understood than it'll make sense to you...if not well than read it again....

Today was a boring day...lots of sleeping and copying homework....haha...Lawson's birthday today....His at a prime pimp age of 18...Printed blanks is going to rock two high schools tomarrow...17 days til my birthday.. Oh yeah I remember today sort of sucked...Mr. Bennett took my cell phone that asshole...Then I had to wait after school for Brandy to look for it when it was in the desk in front of her the whole damn time....and now my parents need to sign some piece of shit paper saying the cell phone rules at Mission...Man my school sucks...I'm ice cold thought because tomarrow is going to be kick ass..

damn i already forgot my pass word to my last blog so I started a new one....haha...but yeah a new blog...new life...no more drama...

I wrote some stuff in math today....

The First One Starts...

In line where I am tainted
Confused and Angry
Where life erupts your shirt
Bursts in whites and I'm quiet
Not smiling, but inside who rides?
The feeling of which words can't comprehend their own meanings
Miseducated on my lifestyle
Good grief on my style
I dig myself deeper in my own grave
Jaded and Untrusted
On nights where the cold withers its way
from my toes to my knees
Goose bumps arise from the gusts
Realizing I can't control the way you look at me

Alot of you might think what I was writing about....but it's something completely different....But I won't get into it.....If you know me know me, you maybe could figure it out...probably not

Dreaming of Smiles

In hopes for the best
Thought renderring to a mischevious smile
With bright lights illuminating gleams in her eyes
Eyes of trouble, and a squint to make lights dim
In vision, eye lashes stroke the back of hands
Extending arms to scared hearts
Upon this sheet of red glistening drops
Thoughts to provoke attention
Brownish greens turned away
In hopes they would turn on me

yah....Some of you might think that's to something...but once again it's on a different subject that I'm not quite comfortable about talking about yet....

well today was an ok day...nothing to make me extremely happy or extremely upset....so it was just a chill day...lots of sleeping in class...went to sleep late last night...COUNTDOWNS!
1 day till Lawson's birthday.....2 days till the MSJ and Kennedy shows.....6 days till the new Blink182 cd comes out...18 days till my birthday....anyone want to be invited to my non-existant surprise birthday party that i'm throwing??...I'm a dork...well right now....I'm listening to the Steel Train cover of the Jackson 5 it's tight!....well it just finished so I'm going to go put in the BRANDnew cd....yippee....well I'm out...